Whoever control the bottoms of life has decided to has push the bottom on maximum. Life has never been so busy.... Last week I didn't have to breath... It got suffocating. The phone didn't stop ringing, work and more work, piles of paperwork, emails accumulating my inbox.
The week last week started with the woman of my life (my grandmother Dina) being sick.... I had never heard my granny's voice so frail, so vulnerable - it was heart breaking. My mind was worried...I can take any issue, bring any problem and I will solve it though please don't say someone I love is ill...that's something I can't deal very well with.
The week continued busy and loaded with bad news... My dear aunt told me the cancer had returned and it's now in her liver..Ohhh.. Seriously I was counting the days for a new start, a new week ( I know...I should not think that magically the problems will disappear with the start of a new week though...sometimes I do like to believe in that).
Friday I had my first therapy session...I like to call it Life coaching.. I will never forget when my aunt told me that she was going to therapy because she had reached a point in her life where no one wanted to hear her problems and therefore she had to pay for someone to listen to her... My case it's different... Well, I never liked to thrown all my troubles into a friend anyway (I do believe that people don't like to hear our troubles)...I see these life coaching sessions as a work out for my emotions, a gym session for my brain. Seriously. it got to a point in life where I realised that I spent my time focusing so much at others, listening, working, solving others problems and I ended up forgetting to give me time. As I learnt with the therapist right in the first session; Since I was a child I spent so much time looking after others...my father, my sister, my friends, the world around me...that I have never spent the time to look after myself (well maybe this is something that every therapist say in every first session in order to hook their 'clients') And I tell you what; I completely understand and agree to that! And now, it's my time to look after myself too and I am looking forward to get to know myself!
