My relation with Stress

First of all, I am so sorry I have stopped posting on the blog. I really am. 1.because I received DMs on the twitter and emails from readers mentioning how much they missed reading and following the posts and 2. Because it brings me so many good feelings to write and share here my feelings and discoveries.

Okay, apologies aside; now I will tell you the reason why I have been away; one word: STRESS.

31 years and I never thought I was going to fell into the trap of the monster called Stress and I did.  I am hyperactive, always been. I have always led a very busy life style, mostly because it's my nature and I enjoy it that way and also because the busier you are the more busy you get. I was coping with a very heavy work life managing over seventy (yes 70) team members, driving a very dynamic and expanding business plus on the side; publishing a book which means; promoting it, distributing it and etc...also I was writing my second book for two to three hours everyday and committing myself to go to the gym to work out five times per week.. plus a lot of other things that are just part of modern life; pay the bills, look after home(ensuring everything it's under control and functioning as it should), managing life in general... and suddenly I collapsed.
Well not literally collapsed but my body started to give in. I begin to feel extremely exhausted as if I was running on a zero battery all the times, extreme headaches, became  irritated easily...Horrible symptoms that came all at once without any pre-warning. I didn't want to let it go and continued with all the crazy life style simply because I didn't want to give in, it was like failing and I don't like failing - I don't mind coming second, third or even last as long as I know I have given my very best but if there is something I do mind it's to fail by not trying, not finishing something - Oh I cannot cope.

My mind didn't give in but my body did; my eyes are constantly twitching and watery, head hurts and so many other sympsthoms which is as if my body trying to say to my mind; REST! and as a child that sometimes only learn a lesson by spending time on the naughty corner I have now learnt my lesson; to fail isn't to slow down your life style and perhaps don't take too much on board but to fail is to take so much on board to the point of not being able to enjoy life anymore and to enjoy all of the things you are doing. All became mechanic with no pleasure - well, it also nearly killed me.

I have now learn the lesson; I slowed down my agenda, I slowed down how I do things and enjoy everything I do without worrying about the; Clock (the Stress best friend). No hurry, no paranoia if I couldn't fit in all of the objectives I had set myself for the day. It's simple; I learn to manage my time by prioritizing everything. Whatever doesn't make the list of priorities can wait and can be done tomorrow, perhaps.

Failer isn't not to acomplish all of the tasks in the agenda but to not enjoy life!


The blog brings on a lot of good feelings and pleasures and therefore it's on my priority list. Watch out for more posts.

:)